Day 35

Whoop whoop... and another 3lb gone.  I'm now only 1lb away fom having lost 2 stone....

Day 33

It's Friday and I have had such a shitty week.  I don't know why but I guess I had to hit the wall as far as positivity was concerned at some point.  I'm hoping that tomorrow will be better.  Buck up a bit in time for the weigh-day on Sunday...

Day 31

How on earth can such a positive weekend go downhill so fast??

It is now Wednesday of Week 5 and I am craving food.... I'm not hungry at all but craving food like mad.  I guess I've just been really lucky because I haven't really craved food just texture but today.... damn it's been hard.  I went grocery shopping in the evening and when I came home and put the food away I could have eaten every damn thing in the fridge.

In the whole four weeks this is the first time I've felt like this and because of the way I;m feelign I'm getting really down as well....

Day 29

I went to work today wearing size 18 trousers which are waaaaaaaaaaaaay to big for me.  I tucked my top into them which also seemed to show off just how much weight I've lost and so many people commented.

One of the ladies in my team, who saw me on Thursday, said she was overwhelmed how different I looked.

What's funny is that I feel so incredible... especially when people do comment but one of the things I have noticed is that it's generally the guys who comment and not the ladies, and the guys don't comment in a leching way.... they comment about how I look great and ask how I'm doing it. They're really positive and ask how much weight I've lost and how I'm feeling...

Today was a great day!

Day 28

Well Holy Shit... I lost 6.4lbs this week...

I am absolutely stunned by this but totally over the moon.  I'm now 13.5 stone which is incredible for me...

In maybe three weeks time I'll be 12 stone something or other....

Day 27

I have been so overcome to have the sensation of food in my mouth (not hunger) this week that on two occasions I've taken small amounts of food.

On Wednesday I put a slice of cold boiled potato in my mouth, chewed it and then spat it out. I had boiled the potatoes & sliced them for frying for my daughter and brother the following day.

Tonight it was some swede & carrot that I had mashed up... just a teaspoonful but I actually swallowed it as well.

I think I gave in to the craving today because I was so overcome with the need to have a texture in my mouth other than fluid. I spent the day with a friend shopping and hanging out... I had three cups of black coffee (the first since beginning LT four weeks ago), only one shake until 7pm and only 2l of water. When I got home I felt so damn sick it was unreal. So despite having a wonderful day in the city shopping for underwear two sizes smaller than a month ago my euphoria turned into tearful guilt as soon as I had swallowed the spoonful.

What really upsets me more than anything is that I have been so damn positive about this diet and its results... and then I do some stupid **** like this...

Weigh day tomorrow - I'll see how much damage I've done...